About me

OK, who am I? Sometimes I wonder myself lately. Quite a lot that defines me I don't have currently. The most important things are still there, my wife and 3 kids have been brilliant while I have not been well; my eldest, Ellie, is 10, the two boys, William and George, 7 and 6 respectively. They have all been shouted at a lot, due to the level of steroids I have been on mostly but also in part due to how low I have felt. There has been no end in sight and that is depressing, but with surgery on the way I am a lot more positive. With every day being like the one before and knowing that the next day will be the same there is only so much you can take before everything everyone says gets taken the wrong way. Completely unfair of me I know, that makes it worse; I know it is wrong to tell the kids off for something that all kids do but it is as if I am inside my body with no control over the person doing the shouting. This is hard on everyone. But they are still there for me, I know I am lucky.
I run my own business, that is to say I am the business so being housebound since last November has trashed everything really. I hope that my customers will come back to me once I am back fit again, I am good at my job so hopefully they will be back, but if not I will have to think long and hard about what I am going to do. Maybe I will have to become employed by someone else, I must admit that if I was tied to a desk working for someone else I could possibly work some days, but as my job entails driving sometimes from one end of the Island and back again with few, if any, toilets on the way, and that is an insurmountable problem at the moment, it is just not possible. So, once the operation is done and I am well again I can get back to work and back to walking with the family and fishing again. Possibly get out on my boat again!