update

been a couple of weeks since the last update. Been feeling real low lately again. Am now on some tablets for depression, that is how bad I am feeling. Seem to have taken a real backward step, OK so when I need the loo it is not as bad as before the op but it is still bad. The contents of the bag are causing me worry as it is real liquid again.
Seeing the surgeon on 4th October so hopefully I will get a proper plan in place as to what is going to happen. I am assuming another op to remove all the large intestine is on the cards. I hated this idea to start with but I am now so low I no longer care. I have run out of hope that ot will be possible to give me a pouch so the only option that I am aware of is take everything out. At least if it is colitis and not crohns that will be an end to it once and for all.


It's my mum's birthday today so happy birthday mum.

sigmoidoscopy results

Had the sigmoidoscopy yesterday; the results were not too good, Still have problems but it looks like the problems are both low down and possibly higher up than the sigmoidoscopy reaches. The surgeon said we have some very difficult decisions ahead. I felt bad and that made me feel a lot worse. How long will this go on? I think I am now facing having this temp ileostomy made permanent. I want a decision sooner rather than later so I can get on with my life. I have said this before though, this op was going to allow me to get back to work etc. It has not done so due to the hernia then having a flare up again has caused it to drag on and on.
That's all for now.

getting close to exam

So only a few days till I have the sigmoidoscopy. Feeling low still, hence the week since the last post. Not a lot to say really; bad headache and generally run down today, going over to some friends later so trying to cheer up. I think that as it is now a year since I first became ill it is really getting to me now. I was hoping to have a big party on my birthday this year as I felt so ill and worried last year but I don't think that will happen now.

bad both mentally and physically

Happy September.
Not that I feel happy today, feeling run down and generally crap today. Symptoms returning with a vengeance and my appointment for the sigmoidoscopy has been moved to the following week. I am getting fed up with appointments being moved so often. I think that perhaps cos I have just accepted it in the past there is a big tick on my records that says 'This person is a push over, move him!'