Just got out of hospital again

Got taken in to hospital again following horrendous pain on Tuesday night. Seems that this time it is probably a loop of bowel trapped in the hernia and / or adhesions. Waiting for a date for the final operation, this might speed things along I suppose.

Update long overdue

Since coming off the azathioprine things have not been going too well. Been suffering from some pain and passing blood again and it has been getting worse. Went to see the medical consultant last Monday and asked about the risks of being on azathioprine long term. He started with lymphoma and went on from there. So that sounds like not a good plan to me. The other option is another operation to remove the last bits left behind. I do not want a reversal, I can cope with the bag OK and there are some nasty complications that can, and in my case probably will, arise so I have opted for the operation. Just need to wait till I see the surgeon's team and wait for a date. They will repair the hernia for the second time too!

On another note, the DVLA came back to me and told me that I am OK to drive, I have to have a 3 year license and apply for a new one at the end of that but that is no problem. I have increased my medication and things should be OK for another 10 years!

off azathioprine

I am now off the azathioprine! been taking it for over a year now so the idea is to see what happens to me. The op in November left behind the rectum and a small piece of colon in case I wanted a reversal / pouch operation in the future. The idea is to see how things go when I am off the aza. I have been a bit unwell but the hope is that I will be ok. Let's hope so anyway!

anniversary passed without really noticing...

One year ago I had my loop ileostomy "installed". One month ago I started work again. One week ago I had the first sleep fit in 10 years. Life can be a real bitch sometimes.

Today is a milestone for me.

Yes, today is a real big milestone. I got back to work today! Computer Troubleshooters IOW are now open for business again. There were many days when I thought that this day would never come but it has arrived at last. It is a very special day in another way as well, it is my daughter's birthday, so happy birthday Ellie. The fact that I have got back to work on such an important day means a hell of a lot to me. Things are not perfect by any stretch of the imagination but I have to start work or go completely mad, or possibly be murdered by my wife, one way or another I am better off out the house!

I have decided that I will be keeping this blog going a bit longer, even though the point was originally as a diary for a short while. So what to use it for now I wonder? I would welcome any comments you may have so I know what you want to see here. I will open it up as a discussion site maybe. Drop some comments on here and we shall see what happens.
Mark

Very long overdue update

I have been working on this entry for a long time, I kept deleting what I had written so here goes. Last October it all got too much for me and I ended up on anti-depression tablets. I went to see the surgeon about getting the op done in October and was told it would be 1 or 2 months. This did not help my state of mind cos when told that you only seem to hear the 2 months bit. So I am expecting end of December at this point. A long way off with more problems till I get there. However I actually went into hospital on 11th November and had op on the 12th.
The surgical team wanted to give me a epidural for pain relief after the operation but after 30 minutes of pain they gave up trying to get it in so I had to put up with normal morphine through the drip instead. The op went OK, took ages to come round again but all seemed OK, repaired the hernia and gave me a permanent ileostomy. This blog was supposed to be a diary of how I cope with a loop ileo for about 18 months. So how do I go on with it? Do I continue with it so other people can read it to see what sort of things we ostomates go through? I think I will probably keep it up for a while. Anyway, back to the post op time; was in one hell of a lot of pain following the operation, the morphine did not keep a lid on it and then to make things worse the surgical team took it away too soon anyway! I then managed to persuade the nurses that I needed something else and saw the acute pain nurse. I am not sure what they put me on but it worked a dream. Then I noticed that I was suffering from a lot of redness around the stoma. I had a nice little infection with cellulitis setting in. This was a worry for me as it did not seem to improve for a long time. Then to top it off I changed my bag one morning and I found I had 2 holes in my abdomen. This scared the crap out of me as I then told this was a fistula and I had a hole in my bowel somewhere that was emptying inside so my body made a route for this to escape. So I now had a stoma and to the right of this I had 2 holes draining crap into my bag. I found out that I was lucky as this problem is rare but there is no guarantee that a fistula will be anywhere near the stoma. It can appear anywhere so I was lucky that I could use one bag to collect the output and not have to have 2 bags stuck on me! So I get put on some extremely strong antibiotics through an IV and told that this should clear up the infection raging through my body, caused by the faeces emptying into my abdomen. Eventually I was taken off them and told that if I did not crash in 24 hours I should be OK. There was no tablet form of these antibiotics so I had to be OK with nothing before I could go home. Luckily after 2 days I had not got any worse and was allowed home.
Will leave it there for now and prob come back to it later.

hi

Want to clarify a bit; the last post was moaning about stuff. It is a year now since I became ill. If you are a bloke reading this and you think that you may be not well, do not put off going to the GP. Trust me on this. If I had gone sooner I would probably not be sitting here a year later waiting for the whole of my large intestine to be removed. I was too ill for any surgery at the time, I had a lot of infection but I was ill enough to need the surgery. It meant that I had to have a lot of medical intervention before surgery could be looked at. It sounds stupid but I wish I was not so ill but ill enough to still need surgery. OK, so I would have had to cope with an emergency op but surely that would be better than waiting a year and still not knowing the future? Each day takes is hard on me, I can't help thinking back to last year and thinking about how bad things were then. Instead of thinking that I am not that bad now, why am I feeling so crap?


Today is my wife's birthday so happy birthday Ruth. I know this last year has been real hard but I hope that we can stick it out and that this coming year is a whole lot better.

update

been a couple of weeks since the last update. Been feeling real low lately again. Am now on some tablets for depression, that is how bad I am feeling. Seem to have taken a real backward step, OK so when I need the loo it is not as bad as before the op but it is still bad. The contents of the bag are causing me worry as it is real liquid again.
Seeing the surgeon on 4th October so hopefully I will get a proper plan in place as to what is going to happen. I am assuming another op to remove all the large intestine is on the cards. I hated this idea to start with but I am now so low I no longer care. I have run out of hope that ot will be possible to give me a pouch so the only option that I am aware of is take everything out. At least if it is colitis and not crohns that will be an end to it once and for all.


It's my mum's birthday today so happy birthday mum.

sigmoidoscopy results

Had the sigmoidoscopy yesterday; the results were not too good, Still have problems but it looks like the problems are both low down and possibly higher up than the sigmoidoscopy reaches. The surgeon said we have some very difficult decisions ahead. I felt bad and that made me feel a lot worse. How long will this go on? I think I am now facing having this temp ileostomy made permanent. I want a decision sooner rather than later so I can get on with my life. I have said this before though, this op was going to allow me to get back to work etc. It has not done so due to the hernia then having a flare up again has caused it to drag on and on.
That's all for now.